What spirit?

Well it definitely doesn't feel like the Christmas holidays...not in Bangkok, Thailand in 80 degree weather. It's bittersweet. I won't be able to make gifts and give gifts before Christmas this year.

I feel bitter and not in the holiday spirit. Maybe it'll change when I fly home to friends and cold weather.

If he doesn't miss you, care for you, or want you...forget him.
He isn't worth it.
how do you make someone appreciate what they have without making them lose anything?
.. just something to think about.

dirty little secrets

say what you want, 

say what you mean,

question yourself, 

are you really...

what you seem? 

before you question or judge others, why not take a look at yourself first? little things have been flying around my head lately as this experience is quickly coming to an end. you get to replay certain details, memories that seem to happen so long ago. i had a meaningful conversation with a friend during break between classes. it started off with me just venting about how i felt. after a while, it hit me. i'm judging others before i look at myself. i debated about this for quite a while and couldn't quite come up with an explanation. i need to learn how to look outside of myself and see if i am what i seem to be. 

best of what's around

it's not just pictures, or even the words

it isn't for my wants, or needs

rather, just something that lingers throughout the day

echoing...a thought

a place where i can comfortably write down memories

a passing feel of intimacy

something i will commit to

cause the best of what's around

is too precious to forget

to new beginnings